Thursday, June 07, 2007

great and terrifying

Sometime in the beginning of March as I read this great phrase in my morning Bible reading, I was inspired and wrote a poem that looked forward to the emotions of finishing 19 years of schooling--which I did yesterday as I graduated (for the last time) from my 2nd year of Cascade Life Commission, with no plans of ever returning to school as a student (enough is enough!).

So here it is, it's one of the cheesier poems I've written, but also true to my emotions, so I guess I'm just a cheesy person:

Great & Terrifying
from Deuteronomy 1:19
by Joann Renee

Oh, great and terrifying wilderness!
Unexpected friend.
How vast you seemed
When first I set foot in your land!

So dry. So startlingly empty.
An ocean of sand
Spreading endlessly in all directions.

But the word to enter you
Was so strong,
There could be no resisting.

I entered with joy.
Like a child excitedly climbing a tree,
Then petrified as he realizes
He will have to climb down.

That’s how this wilderness encompassed me:
First with exuberance,
Then with great fear.

But now, at the edge of this desolate
Place—about to set foot into
A new, lush, fertile, abundant, full land—

I turn and look back at the journey:
I lacked nothing.
I was not alone. Ever. I barely even
Walked on the scorching sands.
I was carried.

As I prepare to exit, I am almost sad to leave—
So much was gained here!
How tenderly I learned love and trust!

Tears silently fill my eyes
As the wind whips my hair across my face
And I turn to set my gaze forward again:

Oh, great and terrifying wilderness!
Unexpected friend.
How vast you seemed
When first I set foot in your land!

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

joann, Congratulations on the accomplishment of finishing your schooling. However knowing you, you will forever be an amazing learner for the things of your God and for the growth of His Kingdom. I love you and am so proud of you. You are a special sister and I look forward to watching rock this land for Him. Peggy S.