Tuesday, April 10, 2007

inkling

I recently finished reading "The Problem of Pain" by CS Lewis. It was a fairly good book...and then I read the last chapter. The chapter on heaven. It (I know this is such a Christian cliche phrase, but...) changed my life. I highly recommend reading it for yourself--if not the whole book, at least that chapter. CS Lewis gives his idea of heaven--of how we get glimpses of it in those things that stir up our spirit. Different for each person. An inkling of something bigger than this life. He then goes on to say that he believes that God created each person so uniquely so that in heaven they will be able to worship one attribute of God better than anyone else because of the way He creatively wired that person. I ended up writing a song based off of it. It's not conventional at all.

Inkling
by Joann Renee
(C.S. Lewis “The Problem of Pain”—
chapter on heaven)

There are chinks—
Sometimes a sunrise
Or an Americano in the rain—
A whisper of ecstasy
Only glimpsed—
Never quite captured.

Like unzipping the air
And finding, finally,
The hollow you were
Made to fit, but
Unable to step through.

In the drudgery and routine,
Masked behind every activity:
It’s You I have loved all along.

Most of the time
I am content with where I am,
Who I am,
And I don’t long
For more of You.

But then an inkling—
Perhaps the scuttling of leaves—
Rustles my soul
And I wonder if I’ve ever
Desired anything but You?

In the drudgery and routine,
Masked behind every activity:
It’s You I have loved all along.

Deep in my soul is a perfect hollow,
Sometimes roused, but never satisfied.

Waiting, hoping, longing
For the day when I wake in Your likeness.
Jesus in all I see.
It's You I have loved all along.
How can we see face to face till we have faces?

1 comment:

Luke B said...

Chills.